I Discover Myself

It’s the small things that makes the ‘real’ difference. Two months has passed by so quickly. Though it just seems like  yesterday I moved from Luton to Penryn. It has been a learning experience.  I feel I am completely moving in a different direction than initially planned. With so much confusion about what i want to do, I had reached a point when i just wanted to go to Nepal. But life had some other things stored in for me as we all know how unpredictable life can be. Things happen when you least expect or don’t plan out at all. Sometimes I keep wondering if I have lost myself or have I actually discovered myself.

When everything seemed wrong and hopes had failed, a ray of light showered upon me. With the grace of God, today I feel I am where I should be in order to pursue my career.  I vividly remember that day, it was my graduation. Our guest of honour  was the head of the forensic department in Luton. He made a remarkable speech which still lingers on my mind.  It was overwhelming just to listen his life journey experience. His last words were  how important small thing are in our life and how these small things can change your life forever. So never ignore ‘small things’. When he was about nineteen, he went through a newspaper and saw a vacancy for forensic and applied that very moment. Little did he know that he would be the head after 10 years. He is now where he is because of that decision he made. Something similar happened to me.

When I was struggling to decide where I wanted to study and what exactly I wanted to do with my career. Suddenly I came across this phrase in University College Falmouth‘s website“Would you like to travel to far-off countries and report on some of the world’s most important and exciting stories? Or maybe you see yourself breaking international news stories from a digital newsroom in London, Doha or New York?” This was it. When I first read this phrase, all I could do was picture myself. After reading this phase I couldn’t stop relating it to me. When I felt like I couldn’t decide what actually I wanted to do, it was that very moment I had read this and today I am there. What a coincidence!!! So it is very important to keep your eyes and mind open. It all depends on your decision YOU make in THAT very moment which can change your life FOREVER for BETTER or WORST. When I felt I was completely lost I actually found myself.

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REGRET ON UNFOLDING SUICIDE

I am deeply saddened and shocked after reading the article of a teenage boy from Florida who killed himself in front of a live Internet audience on 22nd November 2008. My mind can’t stop thinking and reflecting upon this tragedy.

Biggs killed himself after announcing his intentions in a blog
Biggs killed himself after announcing his intentions in a blog

Abraham Bigg’s, 19 announced his plan on his blog and streamed live pictures via a webcam from his home Pembroke Pines, near Miami. People watched him as he overdosed on anti depressive drugs. He remained comatosed online for hours before he died. It is shocking that neither the website’s operators nor any viewers alerted the police. I kept reading the updated article as it remains one of the top stories on the world news in the BBC. The headline just caught my attention and when I read I couldn’t believe what I saw.

I am distraught and I wonder with what expectations those people mention their suicide plans on their blogs. Fair enough it could be a hoax but to what extent? Does it mean that in your blog you can write whatever you want and is there no limitations? This surely doesn’t sound normal to me. One more life is gone when someone maybe could have prevented it from happening. The fact that there were some viewers who encouraged the boy is outrageous. The medium of communication has become extreme. 10 years ago people hardly knew about Internet.  Now in this fast paced world everyone relies on it,  describing as the new era of communications.

I wonder what more the world and its people have to witness via Internet. But what is most astonishing than anything else is that there were people watching it until the boy stopped moving. Only then someone actually bothered to let the site moderator know. The last transmission from the webcam is of a police officer bursting into Abraham Biggs’s room, when he discovers his body and then he places his hand over the camera. Biggs Jr,  was studying to be a paramedic at a college where his father is a maths professor. Abrahim suffered from mental illness, which his mother claimed had finally claimed his life.

Sadly I wonder what makes people go through this. With the use of Internet, people are crossing all their boundaries. There is no control over anything. The Internet is having a negative impact on people’s lives and motivating them to take wrong measures. People are so much into the Internet that the effect it has on us is adverse and shocking.

Blogging is a good way to put your postings across to people and share your ideas but to put postings about suicide: isn’t that mental! This is the first time I am blogging and I can’t believe I am writing about the person who mentioned committing suicide on his blogs only. This happens to have been a mere coincidence that I actually found out the story to start with. I know now what I will talk about in my blogs. It will be about how medium of communication like television, Internet is affecting people’s life and to what extent people believe it. This sounds like a very challenging and exciting task. So folks I shall be updating news about people who create hysteria and are strange. Times have changed; with such mediums manipulating your mind.

However, the footage has since been taken down and his father is now calling for more regulation of chatrooms. Surprisingly I am now very interested in writing blogs.

Last Message by his Mother:

”My son, Abraham Biggs Jr, was well-loved and cared for. However, the mental illness of bipolarity and depression got the better part of him,” said his mother on MySpace. The sense of disbelief at the teenager’s death was heightened by the realisation that his end was drawn out and, most likely, preventable.

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Daughters for Sale- The price of Poverty

This is a 20 minutes documentary which I had completed as part of my Masters Final Project at University College Falmouth. It is about the growing issues of child labour in Nepal. In a country where poverty and illiteracy rate is very high, children are  forced to work as domestic servants by their parents. With no income to rely on, daughters have become their main source of survival.Several decades have passed since the practice of Kamlari started. This is practiced among indigenous Tharu community who are mainly sharecroppers and live with a mere earning of $1 a day. What started once as a tradition has now become a cultural norm.

I was shocked when I first learnt about Kamlari practice. It is with a big regret that daughters like me are being sold off just for a mere earning of Rs 2000 yearly. This is being practiced in the outskirts of the Kathmandu Valley, in Terai Region. Here, more than 11,000 girls have been sold and end up working for the countries elites at private homes, restaurants and are frequently abused and neglected. Most of the slaved daughters are then brought in the capital, Kathmandu, and end up working for long hours without much  pay.

This documentary highlights the social issues of these vulnerable daughters and how different daughters can be treated if you come from a poor family. Besides that I have also interviewed NGO’s and Human Rights to find out more about their involvement and to what extent they have been successful in bringing an end to this outrageous custom. Today, this practice has been completely abolished  yet in some ways it is still being practiced as the government has failed to outlook root causes like poverty discrimination and poverty alleviation. With ongoing political uprising how likely is the government to fulfill their demands? Thousands of former Kamlari’s marched down the streets in the capital demanding rehabilitation in January. Therefore, I believe the Nepalese government should take into consideration these Kamlari’s who have been rescued and in return rehabilitate them. They play a vital role in bringing change in the country as every children are tomorrow’s future to build the country.

No matter what, these children are hungry to learn and have the capability. They have explored and learnt life like non of us at their age has experienced. Yet they are always smiling and hoping for a fruitful outcome that one day they all shall be treated as one and not be outcast. Thus, with a hope to raise awareness of such culture in Nepal, International media and its audience, this documentary was completed in June.

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Blogging for Democracy

Across Nepal, reporters are being targeted for revolting against the King. Journalist and a Blogger Dinesh Wagle emerged as the voice for the outside world when all means of communication was censored. Shristi Rajbhandari meets the man who fought for democracy.

With the morning ray of sunlight reflecting directly in his apartment, Dinesh Wagle describes it as an oasis of calm. As he sits on a chair nearby his computer, he stretches a little to pull those blue curtains behind him which overshadows him. Flipping through a Kantipur newspaper he slowly grins on seeing his name. Excitement fills his mind every time he recalls his first day as a journalist.

Currently living in New Delhi, one of the busiest, crowded and full of life; Wagle switches on his computer with the homepage of his blog on the screen, shaking his head in disbelief at his own success. As a Bureau Chief, Wagle is responsible for sending reports to Nepal’s largest and the most influential newspaper, Kantipur. For past one year, he has been in Delhi writing about bilateral relations between Nepal and India and also covering news about Nepalese population residing there.

He is the man who fought against all odds in order to be heard when all means of communication was restricted in February 2005 when the former King Gyanendra ousted the government and declared himself as the sole ruler of the Himalayan Kingdom.

The whole nation watched in despair after the announcement. Soon telephone lines were cut, mobile phone services were disconnected and Internet access was blocked. Controversies sparked and people of the country stood in dilemma as days of unrest continued. The following day, streets were deserted.  As days passed by situation became more chaotic with roads around the capital clogged with thousands of protestors rallying. Then emerged Wagle, 29, as a sensational voice to the world.

Prior becoming an Editor in chief, Wagle, reported locally and wrote features on Politics and Arts in Kantipur newspaper. For a decade, as a journalist, Wagle says, “I was sheltered by the media house that also challenged the autocracy’’. But this time it was different. Wagle recalls one incident when Military had cordoned his publishing house and were vetting all the work that would be released. After enjoying press freedom for 15 years, journalists were now forbidden to report anything on the royal take-over. Reporters not adhering to the law of the land often ended being locked up, beaten or either arrested. Heavy press censorship resulted in tremendous jobs cuts, which in turn led to a decline in the newspaper circulation. Journalists like Wagle felt the urge to revolt and voice their anguish to free the press. On their mission to restore democracy, hundreds of journalists demonstrated in front of the royal palace.

Nepalese people residing abroad waited impatiently to hear news from their families. As tensions intensified, people marched on the streets of the capital, Kathmandu chanting slogans ‘Restoration of democracy’. Wagle played an active role by organizing street demonstrations and devising ways to circumvent censors. After two months in April 2005, the King finally restored the Parliament and blamed Maoist insurgency as the cause of unrest. For almost a decade, the Himalayan kingdom had been a target of insurgency claiming lives of nearly 13,000 innocent civilians. Even today the people of the country are in crossroads.

Wagle strongly believes blogging acted as a catalyst to restore the country’s democracy, which effectively exerted pressure on the King. Majority of the people were completely unaware about blogsphere due to limited access of Internet and lack of education. But Wagle had read about its network in foreign newspapers and decided to create a blog. Before the coup Wagle thought blogging was only a forum for writers to express their feelings and a passion like any other hobbies. “In the beginning, I didn’t set any goal. It was just because I wanted to blog.”

In ‘United We Blog’ Wagle updated people about ongoing political turmoil. In the beginning the site was created as a common blogsphere to express his thoughts but soon evolved in a revolutionary movement. Wagle’s blogs grabbed worldwide media attention, which helped in relaying information about democratic movement and media situation. Many foreign correspondents visited Wagle’s blog for current updates.

With power shedding in the country, Internet access seemed almost impossible but slowly things began to change. Wagle discovered the way to become the voice to the outside world after realizing Internet was the only tool where freedom of speech could be exercised. He began providing information through clandestine emails, websites and blogs casting them at odds with the rogue government.

Although the state of emergency was lifted, media companies continued to exist under state threat. Wagle had to be careful not to publish reports or editorials that directly questioned the legitimacy of the King’s government. He vividly remembers when military officers approached him. As he stood outside his office waiting for a colleague, he watched a police officer approaching towards him from a distant. Anxiety filled him up after they summoned him to question about his blog, which was one of the main news sources defying the proclamation. He said: “Blogging was a medium of expression that I could use to express myself in a way that I couldn’t in my job”. As soon as they walked away, he breathed a sigh of relief.

Journalists were constantly on the edge during the uprising situation. Once a peaceful landlocked country is now full of danger as journalists continue being targeted by military and Maoist. A place where voices echoed earlier, a silence of terror had replaced it. But Wagle did not fear to voice and hence continued blogging.

Few days later, there was a knock on his door. As he approached to open the door, through a window glass he saw anti-protesters trying to defame him and throwing stones into his garden while police stood still, watching. He said: “That day went by feeling like I was under house arrest myself.” Next morning he received an invitation from the Nepal Army who kept tracks closely on his blogs since March 2005. With full of questions running on his mind, he reached to the army headquarter. He recalls an army spokesman issued him indirect threat urging him to register the web site to them or to the then government of Nepal. Soon there was inspection where his blog narrowly escaped direct government censorship after they could not determine if it was an actual media publication or personal. Actual media publications in Nepal requires to be registered and are subject to  government restrictions. Living continuously under constant fear and families under threat, cold chills run down his spine even when recalling four years later. His parents started to worry about his future and Wagle came under immense pressure since he was the only person earning in the family. When he was young, his parents had refused him to become a journalist due to insecurity it possessed. But he revolted against his parents for his passion to work as a journalist.

Wagle says he is not worried about government authorities assaulting or arresting him and that threats only encouraged him to write more against injustice. He says: “The most important is to get the stories about protests and the press out to the public and to the world.”

As journalists began to report electronically, the outside world started to respond. Wagle received an invitation to take part in the Edward R Murrow Fellowship, a State Department program in the United States that offer foreign journalists to come and experience firsthand relationship of the American press to its democracy. He feels proud to be the pioneer blogger of Nepal and being able to voice out during crisis that eventually led him to receive such a prestigious invitation.

Today he is a renowned and an inspirational political columnist in the Nepalese media who revolted against terrorism and the then autocracy rule of the King. Despite all this, future of Nepalese people and its journalists remains bleak. Though there is no way to measure the impact of Nepalese journalists outreach, however, a May 2005 report by the New York-based Committee to Protect Journalists singled out praises for the online reporters like Wagle. Also Curt Hopkins, director of the Committee to Protect Bloggers, credited Wagle with being “a leading voice in a chorus heard around the world” about Nepal’s backslide toward tyranny.

Like many others, Wagle continues to operate at risk when hundreds of Nepalese journalists have been beaten, arrested or detained. “What are they going to do, put me in prison for a few days, a few years?” he asks with a shrug. “It is a matter of principle.”

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Nepal on Standstill

After a long week Bandh referred to as the closure of the country, life in Nepal came to a standstill. With no vehicles on the road just people singing and dancing was a sight to experience itself. The country is currently undergoing political instability as the Maoist party who holds the largest number of seats in the government wants back their power and rule the country. To meet their demands, a week long protest were held throughout the nation in a bid to oust the current Prime Minister Madhav Kumar Nepal.

I can’t imagine thinking how i managed to stay at home all day for SEVEN days. How much can one watch T.V, surf net or sleep? I felt like I was under house arrest. But to freshen my mood, I used to go out for a stroll and surprisingly the atmosphere on the streets were pleasant. As hundreds of people gathered on the main junction and started singing and dancing entertaining themselves and passers by. Guess this was the newest way to protest in Nepal. With no shops open and no where to go unless you decide to walk miles and miles, life here was crazy and BORING!! BORING!! BORING!!!
But not to forget bandh here in Nepal is unlike any other countries. It’s got its own style and charisma. The streets are somehow never empty as people HAVE to walk back and forth to reach their work. So its an experience to see yourself what its like to b in Nepal during such bandhs

 

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